LemonPainter92

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LemonPainter92

Nov 11, 2021

Urgent Shout-Out!

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Hey there everyone~!

I want to help my awesome, nice, and dear, friend~! CrazyMeliMelo is an incredible and talented Artist, and she's in a bit of a pickle~ So I beseech you all to go Commission her~ Please share this~!

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LemonPainter92

Aug 14, 2021

Holiday~!

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Hey there, awesome people~!

After a long and busy year, I'm going on my Holiday~ I'll be going to Bridlington for a Week~

If I don't reply to Messages and Notes, then the place I'm at doesn't have Internet~

I've been pretty busy since my last Journal, and sort of all over the place with my Emotional and Mental states~

I've been dealing with the latter quite well, thankfully~

As for what I've been doing, well like I said, I've been busy~ I've been writing my Novels again, and even finished the Prologue for my 5th Novel~ I've been working as well, and even considering leaving for another Job~ I've been a bit crazy with collecting Crystals, Models, and Books, haha~

From LemonPainter92~

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LemonPainter92

May 31, 2021

Life lately

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I'm finally ready for a Relationship.

I'll be honest and tell you all what's been happening. I've been depressed and suicidal since 2017. Because of numerous issues, and my pride, I ruined and strained my Relationships and Friendships, which just made everything worse. With one of the former being a long running Relationship. I ruined my life. I shut myself off from everyone, and just stopped communicating. I didn't ask for help, and didn't tell anybody anything. I was just motionless, stood still as everyone else moved forward. I experimented with many things to ease the pain, desperate to find a place for me, to find peace, to be fixed, but nothing worked. I was completely lost, and my Mental Health was non-existent. Like my Soul had left my body, and I was on Autopilot. I just focused on my Work, and not on me, or those close to me.

And I'm now only just slowly coming out of that dark place. I'm answering people again on a regular basis; trying to mend those Friendships I strained. I'm also meeting new people and chatting with them. I've joined a few new Groups and Sites. I'm sharing my Art and Fan Fictions again on my numerous Sites. I'm even drawing more, and rediscovering some of my old Interests and Hobbies. I'm trying to accept who and what I am, and not change myself for others. Heck, I'm planning to Publish my Novel Series soon. And as a sign of a new, revitalised me, I'm no longer TheDarkestNight51.

I shouldn't be doing everything by myself, and trying to heal myself without help. I should communicate more with people. I'm in a good place now. I'm still healing, trying to sort out faults of mine, but I'm mentally, emotionally, and spiritually ready for anything now. I know I'm ready for a Relationship now, and know what I'm looking for. I'm ready to move forward with my life; no more standing still, no more being held back by the past. No more fear of the past and future. I want to prove to certain people they were wrong. I would like to thank my friends, and Family, who stayed with me, were patient with me, and those who helped me through a difficult time. Even if it was unknowingly. And I'd like to apologise to all those I hurt, I'm deeply sorry.

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LemonPainter92

Apr 25, 2020

Hello Everyone!

3 min read

Good Evening, visitors.

I know, it's been quite sometime since I last wrote. Honestly, it's because I don't really do much with this site anymore apart from chatting with people. I don't really Draw anymore, haven't been in the mood, plus I'm focusing on my Writing.
I've been keeping well, mentally and physically, had a few moments of depression however. I'm trying my best with Self Care, but I'm still learning, haha.
Had a Job too at my local Air Craft Museum, but it was put on Ice due this CoronaVirus. I don't know.
These days are starting to drag, but I'm somewhat fine due to being an indoor chap anyway. Miss hanging out with my friend though, haha.

I've been busy with Writing my Novel Series, on Chapter 10 of Book 4. I'm quite passionate about my work.

I'd also love to say that I just love discovering, by accident, people who've Blocked me, it's so funny.

I just Block their stupid selves back, haha. At least I don't have to bother with those sort of people.

Such scum.

I've been trying to find balance with myself too, stabilising my Mind, Body, and Spirit. It's quite tricky. Some of my friends suggested Faith of sorts, but that's a 'no' from me, simply because most deny darkness. I don't want that, I want harmony between my Light and Darkness, as one cannot exist without the other.
Anyway, I'd just like to finish with hoping everybody out there is fine and getting through this troublesome time without much problems. I wish you all luck and to stay strong and safe.

Catch you all later.

TheDarkestNight51.

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LemonPainter92

Jul 7, 2019

Update, Baptism, and Shout-Out

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I'm trying to make the effort though.
I've joined a new Group at The Point, which helps me break my comfort zone, and will help me get a job. They've helped me through a difficult patch too, something called PIP, and went with me to the Interview, which was still a hectic experience.
While I left Counselling a few months back, I'm still having problems, and it's nothing to do with emotional and mental problems from my past. I had a heavy depressive episode yesterday, sadly.

I've also finished my Third Novel, Echoes of Abyss: Return to the Milky Swathe and History of the Lost. I've also finished going over Book 1. Now I need to thoroughly go through Books 2 and 3 once again, making sure they're as polished as they can be before I publish them. :D (Big Grin)

I've also been rediscovering my old hobbies and interests, and it's quite strange I'll admit. So many old interests that I left behind, and I'm ashamed, saddened really, that I left those behind.

Oh well, I'm happy to have rediscovered them.
I'm also getting Baptised on 13/07/19 at 11:30. I honestly can't wait, yet I am nervous as heck.

I also want to give a shout-out to a new friend of mine, ShiroiYurei. She recently joined, and her art is absolutely brilliant! So could you please check out her awesome Profile; Watch, and welcome her, please?

I really need a new Icon.

Hassara Abyss' new outfit = Planning Stage
Lazarus T'wa = Planning Stage
Nelo T'wa = Planning Stage
J'Hona T'wa = Planning Stage
Fall into Darkness = Planning Stage
Hassara's Divine Power = Planning Stage
Jhonny X Soren for SorenTheHedgehog = Planning Stage
Hassara Cosplaying as Jonathan Archer = Planning Stage
"I am your Shield, I am your Sword" = Planning Stage

Stellar Class (Remake of Star Types) = Planned

Echoes of Abyss: The Solar Crusher Event = Finished
Echoes of Abyss: 100 Year War = Finished
Echoes of Abyss: Return to the Milky Swathe and History of the Lost = Finished
Echoes of Abyss: Fractured Mirror = Not Started

As you can see, I plan on being busy with regards to getting work out there.

I hope you've enjoyed reading this, and I hope you all enjoy the work I will put up soon.
Well, it depends on if I'll be uploading my art onto here. I'm kind of lazy; that and I've been blowing on so much time on Crash Team Racing Nitro-Fueled, reading, or writing my own Novels.

Catch you all later, lads and lasses.

From TheDarkestNight51.

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Good Evening, visitors. I know, it's been quite sometime since I last wrote. Honestly, it's because I don't really do much with this site anymore apart from chatting with people. I don't really Draw anymore, haven't been in the mood, plus I'm focusing on my Writing. I've been keeping well, mentally and physically, had a few moments of depression however. I'm trying my best with Self Care, but I'm still learning, haha. Had a Job too at my local Air Craft Museum, but it was put on Ice due this CoronaVirus. I don't know. These days are starting to drag, but I'm somewhat fine due to being an indoor chap anyway. Miss hanging out with my frie

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Update, Baptism, and Shout-Out

Jul 7, 2019

Hello there, everyone! Well, it's been a while since I wrote one of these, and a bit has happened. I haven't posted many Journals and Art because I just can't be bothered to make these often. Haha, oh well. I'm trying to make the effort though. I've joined a new Group at The Point, which helps me break my comfort zone, and will help me get a job. They've helped me through a difficult patch too, something called PIP, and went with me to the Interview, which was still a hectic experience. While I left Counselling a few months back, I'm still having problems, and it's nothing to do with emotional and mental problems from my past. I had a hea

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Love Meme (Update)

Apr 11, 2019

Totally forgot about this thing, I did one back in 2014, but thanks to SilversFanGurl (https://www.deviantart.com/silversfangurl)'s own update, I decided to remake my own. :D This should be fun. :) This will also be tricky, since Hassara and Nelo don't have anyone. Yet I want to include them. So for Nelo I'll use his partner from my Novel Series, and I'll just give Hassara his closest friend/potential lover. Rules: Choose 1-4 of your OCs to answer the questions. Credit owner (Sophiecinders14). Tag 2-4 people when you're done. Have fun. ^^ Characters I'm using: Hassara T'wa Abyss Nelo T'wa O'Hara Void (Aurelius Aurelianus) Q1: What is your name, and how old are you?

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Update, Birthday, and Shout-Out

Apr 6, 2019

Hello there, all, Yep, it's been a long time since I've made one of these Journals; and the reason why it's been so long is because I just can't be bothered to make these often. Haha, oh well. Finished my Volunteer Work as a Receptionist at The Point, my local Museum, and I have to say that it was a brilliant experience; eye opening and incredible with regards to pushing me out of my comfort zone, and for the better. :) I left Counselling a few months back too; due to feeling confident enough with myself, and not burdened with emotional and mental problems from my past. It took a lot of work though. I'm a stable person once more. I've

Holiday! by LemonPainter92, journal

Holiday!

Aug 4, 2018

Hello fellow Followers, I just arrived at a Holiday Apartment in Bridlington with my good friend and Brother in all but blood. From Saturday to Saturday, and the place is fantastic! The Holiday Apartment location is perfect, and the interior is so cheerful and spacious even though it's compact. I really deserved this Holiday after recent events and how busy I've been. I'm currently really well too, got bit though by something within five minutes of being in Bridlington (just my luck), but I don't care. Well... catch you all later, and I hope you're all well! From TheDarkestNight51.